"Inner Wisdom" Newsletter

Our bodies are bundles of creative energy. Just as the earth is always giving birth, women experience a constant need to create through sexuality. The second chakra is where we store our creativity and where we draw our sexual energy from mother earth. This enormous energy is what we use to create new life. What do we do with the creative impulse when we are not actually giving birth to a child? How do we access our creative energy? How do we use it to heal and create what we most want from life? What is stopping us from stepping into our female power?

In asking these questions, we begin to transform the planet and ourselves. In my healing work, I witness many miracles occurring in women's lives when they begin to connect to areas of their bodies that have been denied for many generations. Developing communication and a connection with our ovaries is crucial for our healing. Did you ever ask yourself how you feel about your ovaries? Or, do your ovaries have something to tell you about yourself? Do you stop and feel the ovaries as you maybe feel other parts of your body?

When I teach female classes, I often start by asking these questions. Women almost always respond with tears and they say, "I forget that I have ovaries!" or, "I have so much shame-my ovaries are numb," or, "I feel blocked." We are usually hiding this important part of our bodies. Our ovaries have been forgotten. We remember them just when we have a medical problem, and even then, we allow somebody else to tell us what's going on, while we ignore what our ovaries have to tell us about the emotions that they hold and the endless creativity and the intuition that we can access from them.

When I began to heal myself, and step into my power, and when I began to facilitate other women in their healing process, I came to realize that the ovaries and the second chakra are where we hold our creative power. In the process of unfolding energy blocks, I have been observing different patterns. The most common one for women is that their ovaries are like sponges used to absorb other people's energies and solve their problems. Emotions such as guilt, shame, isolation, fear, as well as many others are often stored and blocked in the ovaries. This could be a result of sexual abuse, though there certainly are other causes. Lately I have been meeting more and more women interested in learning to live in their power. In order to achieve this, women must acknowledge and break unhealthy patterns. They must release emotional blocks and learn how to use their creative energy, as well as understand how it is available for us within our sexuality.

Unfortunately, there are still many women out there who are unaware that it is possible to heal. In our western society, often we see women match male energy in order to create in the world and to succeed in business. In many ways this has served them and helped them to be powerful equals to men. However, channeling male energy in the body of a woman invalidates the beauty and the uniqueness of natural female energy. This phenomenon creates separation and confusion in a woman's sexuality. Separation also usually leads to disease, very commonly breast and uterine cancer. There are many ways to undo the damage and heal the female body-to heal our earth The broad topic of sexuality and creativity is very important in evaluating human evolution. The earth has been abused for a long time, and it will take a lot to heal her. The way to heal this abuse is through healing our bodies.

For the last 10 years I have been facilitating healing and teaching many women with all kinds of sexuality and creativity blockages. There are endless means and many different tools that I have developed over the years that have worked for many others and myself. I would like to share with you my healing approach and some tools that can help you in your healing process.

The first step is to understand that the answers are within us. In order to heal our sexuality we must develop an awareness of our ovaries and we must accept the possibility of spiritual freedom and ownership over our body and our sexuality. I talk to so many women that have no awareness of their ovaries. It especially amazes me to see the unconsciousness among pregnant women, or in very creative women when this female creative energy is extremely active. I talked with a pregnant woman recently and I asked her what she was thinking about her ovaries. She says that she is aware of the stomach and the nurturing energy, but she was very surprised when I told her that she can get so much more out of pregnancy if she brings her awareness to her ovaries.

Healing your sexuality and creativity can sometimes be challenging because you will begin to open spaces that have been numb for a very long time. Emotions such as fear, shame, sadness, and different memories from abuse will come to the surface and you will need to face them. If you feel that you are lost in those emotions, I suggest that you write down in your journal that you are doing a great job. Validate and admire yourself even if things don't quite feel good. Talk to the wounded child in you and tell her know that you are in a healing process and it is expected to have challenges. As you continue to be with the feeling, tell her that you are sorry that you have left her for such a long time and you are coming back to the body to experience all feelings, even if it is painful. This time you are going to release the pain, so you must remember to validate yourself as you heal, nobody will do it for you.

The next step is releasing. Through meditation, this active and basic meditation will help you release energy blocks, and prepare you to go deeper in your healing process. It can be used for any issues you want to work on. Sit on a comfortable chair (preferably sit on a chair with your feet on the ground so you can have connection to the earth) close your eyes take a deep breath and begin to feel your body. Breathe into every part of your body including your inner organs. Be aware of the base of your spine and imagine that there is a ball of light energy that is supporting your lower back and your tailbone. From that place there is a powerful waterfall. Feel that waterfall like a magnet pulling energy that you are ready to let go of. Let it flow all the way to the center of the earth. Begin to release your day whatever you have done today, whatever you have not finished and need to do, your job, your family, your friends. Tell everybody that you are taking a little break and you can connect with them later. They might feel that you let them go and try to call. You might want to disconnect your telephone before you start. When you begin to feel lighter I would like you to imagine a big gold sun with a magnetic field attached to it. Send the gold sun to collect your energy from everywhere you left it. Add to it your validation and love for yourself and the earth. When it is nice and big, you can then fill up every part of your body from head to feet and around your body with this wonderful energy of you. This tool is called grounding. This grounding is your basic support in your healing of your ovaries and your sexuality.

Now you ready to do the ovaries grounding. Be aware of your ovaries. You can warm up your hands by brushing them together then put your hands on your ovaries. Begin to feel the emotions that come up for you or you might be aware of the size of the ovaries. You might hear them tell you something. Begin to communicate with them, ask them what color and shape they have, are they different from each other, what do they have to tell you right now, what they would like you to do for them. You can continue with this communication as long as you want. You will feel emotions coming up for you, maybe sadness or guilt, shame and others. Sometimes, I like to see my ovaries as flowers or roses. You can imagine them any way you wish to. When you are ready, please imagine that your ovaries are attached to small waterfalls that come right off them and flow to the main waterfall, the big grounding that you imagined before. Let them release the emotions and the blocks that are coming up for you. You might see the colors that are releasing or you might just feel flow of energy through your abdomen, lower back and feet, one important thing that can really help this processes is amusement.

All this energy gets comfortable and programmed in your ovaries. For a long time you might feel a lot of resistance and very serious energy. Amusement will light up your space and help the energy flow smoothly into the earth. If you can't be amused you can fake a laughter, Ha,Ha,Ha, or think about something funny. Still feel your feeling and allow the waterfall to help you release all that negativity. Let it go all the way down to the center of the planet. The earth is here to help you come back to her. By grounding your body you actually return back home. When you feel like your space is lighter, you will imagine a big gold sun filled with your validation, love, creativity and sexuality, unique to you. Begin to bring this wonderful energy into your head and down to every part of your body, and around your body and then deep in to your grounding and even deeper into the earth. This is a simple meditation that can be easily done in about 15 to 30 minutes a day.

Another way to release the blocks in the ovaries is through movement therapy and dance. Dancing is a great way to heal our bodies and stimulate the female passion. In many cultures women use dance and ritual to embrace their sexuality. In order to heal ourselves we must draw this energy of dance into our daily life and use it to embrace and love our body. Here are some examples of movement and dance that you can use as part of this healing.

Place your hands on top of your belly. Speak aloud the word "center." Repeat the word with the intention that the center of your body is the center of your sexuality, the center of your female energy, the center from which all life begins. As you do that embrace this center and love it. Begin to move your legs shake them and let all the energy that you are releasing flow to the Earth. You can then put on any music you wish, I recommend belly dancing music that can remind your lower body to dance. Move as a goddess, just like in ancient times. Circle your hips in rotating motion and feel the energy that is ready to release. You can touch yourself as you move and make your body real to you. Slowly begin to move your arms and other parts of your body, until you let go. Let the music move you. If you find your mind judging you with thoughts like: I am not beautiful enough or I am too big or I am too thin; this is very common. Try to observe those thoughts with amusement and tell yourself, I am great, I am just where I need to be, and release this judgment to the earth by waving your arms and hands from your hips down to your feet.

In sound healing, sound is the language of nature and intuition, which connects us to our source and the sexuality of all creation. Sound is a great way to emotional release and an easy tool to help you get out of your head. You can do it as you dance or you can lie down on the ground. Begin to feel your body, breathe deeply and feel the tension. Start making any sounds that want to come. If you feel heavy and blocked, the sound might be low. Stay with the same sound until it changes by itself. Let your mind go. Or, if you feel energy, your sound might be louder or you can scream. Then feel your ovaries with your hands ask your ovaries what sound they would like to express the feelings that they have. Often, you feel numb to the energy of the ovaries and it will be hard for you to find the sound. You can make the sound of "omm." This sound resonates with the second chakra and is designed to wake up your emotions. It is also the sound for peace and reflection. Make this sound for a few minutes until you feel that this sound comes directly from your second chakra, from your sexual energy. Fill up your body with the vibration of this healing.

Colors and art are a wonderful way to connect to the ovaries. Often in my classes, I find it very helpful to use art when women are not able to see and feel their energy in the ovaries. As you breathe, say "hello" to your ovaries. Tell them that you are going to draw on your creativity that has been hiding in them for a long time. Every woman has a creative source in her ovaries. Let your mind go and let your ovaries lead your hand to the colors that you like to use. If you feel distracted by your mind, I suggest that you close your eyes and pick up a color and let your hand move naturally. You can do this project in any time before or after meditation. Compare your feelings before you released energy and after you filled your ovaries with your healing energy.

For the last two years, I have been teaching a class called Cleansing Your Sexuality increasing your Creativity. I would like to share with you what some of the participants say before and after doing some of the healings that I described above. Answering the question of where, what your ovaries feel like and what they would like from you:

Before grounding, Linzy says: "I have tension in my ovaries. They look gray and they want connection with me."
Peggy: "My ovaries feel neglected and tired, they need some rest."
Sophia: "My ovaries feel battered, swelling and red, they need relaxation and connection."
Joanna: "My ovaries feel blocked and shut down, they need expression."
Susan: "My ovaries feel comfortable, but I am not sure if I am in touch with them, they need love."

After grounding and dancing and healing: Linzy: "My ovaries are glowing, the energy flowing, and they are happy to have connection with me."
Peggy: "My ovaries are not so shut down, vibrating in light energy, they are more awake and still could use more rest."
Sophia: "My ovaries feel more active, releasing energy, they are not used to it, and they need me to take sometime for myself and nurture my body."
Joanna: "My ovaries feel open, creative and much more connected to my expression and creativity."
Susan: "My ovaries feel soft, more feminine and loved."

There are endless ways to connect to your ovaries and to your female energy. There are many ways in which we can change our bodies and heal our planet. I invite you to use your imagination and your courage to realize that you can change old patterns and live your life with spiritual freedom.

Healing Women's Sexuality and Creativity